my brother

it has been 15 days since chong ren left us.... i still tak biasa without him around teasing me cuz usually nobody ejek me wan.... since i"m so revengeful wan type punya... our drama prac start again d... but this time the "YYY" only allow us to do prac afta rehat.. we got not enuff time but we tak ada hak untuk complain n i alrd ask too much help from her d... so i don wana mintak tolong again...

back to ren 1st.. ah ren i noe u must be very worried of us now.. i promise u we will try our best in states... the 1st time i saw u.. u give me the chill feeling.. but afta being one week with u... i can feel ur frenly n caring sides... but unfortunately u hav to go... y does u go so fast.... y must u go study.... y? y?.. i noe i am selfish asking this type of questions but i am feeling very sad cuz i cannot hav those feeling like i hav a bro jaga me anymore.. the only time we all had with u is juz about two months... i noe its hard for u to say gudbye the other nite we go out... but u still say it.. u force urself to say it.... then u run odff immediately without giving us a chance to say gudbye... thats y i, jin n dennis run down n chase u.. eventho my shoes r uncomfortable but i tell myself i must say the last gudbye to chong ren.. unfortunately u hav superpowers n we can"t catchup with u n i missed a chance to say gudbye.... i felt reli sad that nite cuz i juz lost a fren n a brother... a few nites b4 that i talk to u in the phone n i noticed ur voice is different.. i noe that u r crying n u r feeling sad cuz u r about to leave us... u must hav felt the way we do... the feelings of "tak sanggup hati" but wat can we do... we juz hav to say the last gudbye.. eventho it hurts... but i will say this.... gudbye ren for giving me two months of having a brother feeling... for giving me n the team an opportunity to win drama.. most importantly to hav an idol... u r my idol.. u can enter drama u can get 11 A's.... i"ll try to follow ur steps... don worry i won"t let the sgi drama team lost our status.. once a champion always a champion.. i"ll make sure our standard remain like this for next year... u r the best ren.. we miss u forever..